There is eternal waiting within me. For whom? For what? I do not know. I am just waiting. But this is not an idle waiting. In this waiting, I am growing, expanding and evolving. Like Nandi waits for Shiva to wake up. I am waiting for something to wake up inside me. Some energy or some sort of awareness? I am not sure.
I know all longing is longing to meet param-atma. The supreme self. But mind will keep projecting this waiting and longing to meet divine on other people.
“May be if I meet this person, I will be happy.” “May be this longing will end by merging (having sex/marrying) that person.” “May be this person will end my waiting and longing.”
Be ready to be disappointed. It may just trigger a greater, deeper and even more intense longing. As all longing and all waiting is for divine. And he is hiding under our breath. What a funny little game.
“I am within you, go find me.” – Shiva
What is this hide and seek? I know where he is yet I cannot touch him. Only way to know him to dissolve into the ocean and merge with him. Merging is the only true knowing. Unless you merge with him, you can only know his nature as a mental thing. Merging will bring true and complete knowing. Merge with him. Merge by dissolving your mind.
Whatever practice makes you dissolve the mind or transcend the mind. Do that. Remove this veil between you and him. He is here. God is here.
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Anupriya is an Alternative Educator, Holistic Healing Trainer, Trance Medium and now an Author who has mastered many different healing and teaching modalities. She has worked in La Wisdom Alternative Learning Center in Bangalore for 2 years. She has educated children and parents on varied topics like emotional awareness, casteism in india, team work, career choices and addiction awareness etc. She continues to intrigue the minds of young people with her logical and experimental approach. Having gone through her own painful spiritual journey, she also learnt every healing modality that she could get her hands on. She has been training people in – Meditations, Reiki Energy Healing, Emotional Freedom technique, different forms of Acupressure and Reflexology, Ayurvedic Colour Therapy, Sujok, Naturopathy, Bach Flower Remedies, Chakra Healing, Angel Healing and Pendulum Dowsing etc from past 5 years. She has also developed faster healing methods for trauma and abuse victims using various guided meditations, creative visualisations and breathwork. Her faster methods work best with working professionals who have little to no time for themselves and children who have no patience as she teaches very quick tips and tricks to recover from painful circumstances. She also offers longer ‘energy and consciousness’ courses for adults, teenagers and children who wish to awaken a deeper human and spiritual awareness within them.